Yeah, I know, I'm NUTS!

Brenden is going to be 16 months old next week, I'm 6 months pregnant with the next one, and already thinking about how I want more. Here's the thing, I just love being pregnant! I love caring for a little baby growing in my own body, I love the connection, and the movement I feel as my baby grows. I can even say that I like giving birth, yes, I know, Crazy, huh? I didn't have my ideal first birth because things didn't go exactly to plan, but that's what's it's all about! Life is not about everything going exactly the way you want it too 100% of the time, its about when things don't go exactly the way you want them too and learning from that experience to make the next time even better. There is nothing better than giving that precious gift of life to something so small and remarkable. There's something about knowing that you grew this little human inside of you for nine months, knowing all the ins and outs of it. Knowing that you ate to nourish this baby, exercised to keep your body healthy for this little being, knew exactly what part of the body your baby was developing and when, watching your tummy grow as the pregnancy progresses, watching your tummy move as your little one kicks you, being able to distinguish the difference between a little kick and a punch, and those oh so cute hiccups. I really love everything about being pregnant! I want to pregnant all of the time, luckily for me I've got one amazing husband to talk some sense into me and tell me I need to wait a little while longer. I wanted another baby even when I was still in the hospital after giving birth to Brenden, crazy, right? My husband thought so and was thoughtful enough to tell me I really needed to wait because all of my hormones were doing some crazy things to my head. Mostly, I think that Chris was afraid to have babies so close together. He did everything he could to be happy when we found out that we were pregnant this time, but I could tell he was terrified. Chris and I come from two very different families, obviously. Chris comes from a family of two boys, with a 10 year gap. I come from a family of a strange jumble of 3 brothers, and 1 sister. And my older brother and I are 12 months, and 2 weeks apart, and so to me, I want all of our children to be close. Not a year apart close, but I'm definitely okay with 18 months apart. I have been nervous this whole pregnancy thinking there is no possible way that I could be ready for another one. And to add to that, Brenden isn't walking yet and I'm really starting to worry that maybe he still won't be walking by the time the next one comes along. Yeah, I know, I hear it everyday, he'll walk when he's ready. Oh, he's ready, he's just stubborn and refuses to do it. So what's to say that he won't be the same exact way in 3 months from now. I'm just tired of hearing from these people with walking children that tell me that my baby isn't ready to walk yet, that he'll do it in his own time, that I don't spend enough time practicing walking with him, and that I must be doing something wrong. First of all, he's ready, I've seen him do it, he just prefers to crawl. And two, you try being 6 months pregnant and having to carry a 23 lb. baby everywhere you go. Having to lift him in and out of his crib, having to carry him throughout the house because he doesn't listen to where you want him to go, to have to carry him to the place you need to be and back to car, having to lift him into the car because it's far to high for him to crawl into. Some days I find him not walking super frustrating, and I try so hard not to get upset with him, but its so hard and frustrating, and some days, I just don't let it bother me at all, but I want this child to walk and soon!!! I have a few other worries about having another baby so soon. I think after Aria is born, will they get along will Brenden share, will Brenden be nice to his little sister, will Aria sleep at all or be up all night long, will they be able to sleep in the same bedroom, will I have to move Brenden into his own bedroom. I just don't know any of the answers to these questions and they make me nervous! But I am so ready to have a little girl!

25 weeks, 3 days

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24 weeks, 2 days!!

St. Louis Trip

Craters of the Moon!

Last month, inbetween semesters Chris had a day off, so we loaded up the Expedition with plenty of food and some good friends and headed to Craters of the Moon. Chris, Brenden, and I had never really been. When Brenden was only a few months old we had taken the scenic route home from Boise and stopped there, but it being 7 in the evening the visitors center and everything was closed so we just stopped and took some pictures and grabbed a moon rock! This time we really got to see it! I'll post some photos here too! We went with Our friends Mike, Melanie, Paul, and Jes and we had a blast! We left in the morning and had banana bread to snack on in the car, along with a movie to watch. SO we ended up watching, The Italian Job while Chris drove. We got to Craters of the Moon around 11 in the morning and checked in at the visitor's center, watched a short movie and looked around the gift shop until we headed to the caves and trails. We stopped for lunch when we found a picnic table. We had made sandwiches the night before and cut up some cantelope, and gathered the potato salad and chips. It was one amazing lunch! So take a look at our photos, maybe it will feel like you were there too. :)